Saturday, June 13, 2009

We Made It!!!

Well everyone. We have made it into the new apartment and are loving it. Caitlin is so excited to have her own room and although I thought getting our own place would be a means to more time with her I am finding that she wants to be by herself in her own room quite a lot. Oh, well. She can't stay in there forever.

She has already had her first slumber party. She had two girls over for a belated brithday and they had tons of fun. We ate pizza a huge cupcakes, made treat bags, watched tons of Disney channel and went swimming at the pool. It was great to see her having so much fun and becoming a bit more relaxed.

Me, I am like the cat that ate the canary, completely happy and enjoying life. I love my new found independence and having time to myself to just breath.

I do have to say though that in all my talk of independence I am truly grateful for the people in my life. First and formost my mom and dad, especially my dad, he took the time to come out and help his very stubborn and strong willed daughter get things done that she could have never done herself even if she would never want to admit it. I love you Dad and I am so grateful for you. I could not have done this move without him. I am also grateful to wonderful friends that took untold trips to my aunt and uncles, the store, american furniture warehouse, etc to get me all the things that I needed that I forgot about. Your patience and loyalty are the without a doubt appreciated. To the wonderful elders at church that took time from their families to move boxes and furntiure in to the new place. It is so nice to know people that believe in service and helping others.

Most of all I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for his continued blessings in my life and the life of my daughter. He has lifted me up and carried me through these dark and lonely days and blessed my life beyond measure with peace, love, friendship, and clarity. I know that there will still be storms to weather ahead but I know that I can face them with his help.

So for all of you that have read these little blogs, Chapter 2 is just getting good..... stay tuned.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Moving out and Moving on.

Ok. So I have not been as good about the blog as I had hoped to be. I hope no one has been holding there breath waiting for me to post another blog or you have probably turned blue and passed out by now.

I do have to admit that part of my problem has been access to the computer. Since I have been living with my aunt and uncle since moving out and seperating from Darin I have only been able to use the computer when my cousin is not on it which is very rarely.

But that is all about to change. At the end of May I am moving in to my own apartment. It is a great step forward for Caitlin and I. We are very excited about the new place. It is a new beginning and one I am going to cherish.

I am so grateful to my aunt and uncle for being there to catch me at my weakest and most miserable time. I have been able to grow and heal while living with them and I will never be able to repay them for all the good they have done for me. But it is time to step out of the protective bubble and move forward.

I received a plaque in the mail today from my Dad and it really sums up my life right now. It is a quote from Neil A. Maxwell. It said " Faith in God includes faith in His timing. " How beautiful is that?

I may not know why my life has taken the turn that it has. I do know I have no idea what is in front of me and what my future holds, but I do have faith that it will be wonderful and happy because I know that God loves me and blesses me. He has already given me so many wonderful ones.

If will be filling everyone in with more details soon.

Monday, February 23, 2009

So Starts the Next Chapter

I have never been good at keeping a journal. Considering how much I love to talk that might be a shock to anyone that knows me. I decided that so many people write blogs now a days that Iwould give it a shot and see if I could keep to doing this regularly.

I decided to call my Blog Sandi-Chapter 2 based on where I am in my life right now. I love to read and whenever I do I always savor the first chapter. I love that it is the set up for the entire book. It is the time when you get to know the characters and a lot of the time you get the back story. My Chapter 1 is very similar to a lot of others. I grew up in a happy home with two wonderful parents and a brother. I went to school, fell in love, got married, bought a house, worked, and had a child. For some people that could be a whole book and the story would end something like "and they lived happily ever after." I certainly thought that is how my story would go.

But now, here I am, I am facing a divorce and looking ahead to a very uncertain future. I have no idea what is in store for me and to be completly honest it is the first time in my life where I don't really have a plan. My only desire is to move forward. To take care of myself and my beautiful daughter Caitlin. To live my life based on the teachings of Jesus Chirst and to strive every day to be the best person that I can be. I hope that I can be kind and loving, that I can serve others, and that I can be happy. Facing an uncertain future can be really scary. It is especially scary for someone that usually maps out every aspect of her life. But I have decided that it is time to exercise a little faith and see what happens. I hope to be able to use this blog to share this next chapter of my life. Chapter 2. I hope it ends up being the best story ever.